This weeks challenge is to look at what are you actually TAKING up? What are you
giving yourself? Are you learning something new? Taking up a new sport? Giving
yourself a social life?
You know, when I initially wrote this post, I didn't think that I would be writing what I am about to...
First off, I have to say that this round hasn't gone to plan. In fact, to give you an idea of where my plan is, if I was to stay completely still, my plan would have lapped me twice and is in Timbuktu.
While this has been the case, I have come to realise that this round, I am really giving myself something special... I am finding the balance!!
I am living a goal that I have had for the last couple of years - to go to university. While this isn't directly 12WBT related, it is in reality such a huge gift to myself that I have been able to do with the help of my partner.
I have been looking at this year as my time. I am finally in a position not to have to worry about everything all by myself (money, mortgage, food, work, study). I have an amazing partner who wants nothing more than to see me happy and to see me succeed.
While this probably doesn't seem like much of a connection to balance in my life, it really is as for years I have always wanted to be able to find some time to focus on myself, to work my way towards a goal and to have some freedom in my lifestyle and mindset to be able to actively work on who I am now!!
So, while I haven't followed Mish's plans - in any way, shape or form at this point in the round, I have come to realise that part of learning balance is not to stress myself out so much... which is a big undertaking let me tell you!! I am such a stresshead, and I know that this isn't good for me at all!!
It is now week 3 in uni, I am still ironing kinks out, I am still trying to figure out how my brain will retain all of this wonderful new knowledge, but I feel that by taking a step back I am able to find my centre and be able to look at my tasks and changes and ease myself into it, rather than panicking and wondering why I can't seem to do so much like others can (note to self (and anyone else listening!: don't compare yourself - make you life, tasks, work, study, etc work for you!! No one else has your life, and you don't have theirs - everyone copes differently!!)
So, basically, at this point in time I am giving myself time to cope with all of the BIG changes in my life and learning to take baby steps to get to my goals!

