Weigh In and Update

So I have been back on track for over a week now, and other than 1 day I have exercised when I said I was going to... I think that counts as a win!

 

I weighed in yesterday, but was a little too hormonal to actually come in and update the blog. Didn't think I would have really been posting from a positive place (was freaking out trying to fit too much into one day). Don't get me wrong, I was happy about my weigh in. It was probably better than I expected really due to the time of the month.

 

I was hoping for a loss, but would have been happy to maintain this week. While it was my first week back, I know how my body works, so I was really happy to see a 400g loss on the scales. I am still aiming for a 500g loss each week as my goal, and I do need to remind myself of this sometimes as I often find myself hoping for a much larger loss.

 

Once again, I need to get myself in the mindset of slow and steady and no pressure as well as who cares as long as the number is going down.

 

Food wise I have been doing pretty well. I have dipped into my weekly propoints a little for both weeks. I am trying not to, but it is nice to have that buffer there. I think I will be using them all this weekend when a few of my friends come over to kick off the Tour de Fleece. I have been trying to eat filling and healthy foods, but have had a few freddos to help with chocolate cravings.

 

As for exercise, I have started a 9 week challenge on the Wii (EA Sports Active 2.0), and it's so nice to have a variety.  Yesterday B and Miss 5 (yep - 5 now!!) got home not long after I had started exercising and Miss 5 joined in with me! So cute watching her do squats, lunges and running. She even pushed me along to finish!

 

I am looking forward to next weeks weigh in already.  Lets hope I have another good week :)

Achievement Unlocked: Lost 5kg!!

Actually... I have lost 5.9kg!!!

I am so damn excited and proud of myself! Regular readers (from when I was posting regularly lol) will remember me being so down on myself and not wanting to write anymore because I felt like I kept setting myself up for failure...

Taking the time to step back and focus on myself mentally has really helped me.  I feel like I am in control and that I can do this!!!  Which is what I really needed. My first goal of losing 5kg was a way to prove to myself that it can be done.  I had lost weight in the past, but I needed to confirm to myself that I could do it now that my lifestyle is completely different.

The best thing I could have done was to take all of the pressure out of it... for me, while I love that the 12WBT has helped so many people, I find it a little too extreme for myself, and I work much better with little pressure and keeping it all slow and steady.

In fact, "Slow and Steady" has been my motto.  It has taken me 11 weeks to lose that, which fits with my 'goal' of 500g a week. Nice and manageable :)

I have found that if I focus on filling and healthy foods I tend to lose a little more and I try not to use my 49 weekly propoints, but I always seem to dip into them a little lol.

My reward for losing 5kg is to do Ixchel's fibre club, so I will be sending her a message soon to let her know that I am in!  I only have 4.9kg to my next goal, which will mean a total of 10kg lost, I will be under 100kg and almost halfway to my goal of 85kg!

Right now I feel so freaking amazing!!!

Feeling Skinny

About time for an update... don't you think?

 

Once again the thought of posting has been on my mind for the last few days... but that might be because I have an assignment due on Friday... and I am sick of looking at it!!

 

My life is one big chaotic ball at the moment, and the honest truth of it all is that I am not sure if I am coping.  With 2 jobs (yep - 2 now!), uni and a family it's really hard, but right now I am dealing (or not really dealing (or not at all)) with the fact that my Nana has been diagnosed not only with dementia, but also with terminal cancer. I have recently come back from a week in New Zealand to spend some time with her as it is unlikely that she will be with us for much longer, in fact I doubt if she will be here in 3 months time. My Nana is my world, she is the woman who has encouraged me my entire life, who has been always there for me when I have felt so incredibly alone and who has shaped me into the woman I am today. She is the type of woman I strive to be; independent, strong and happy to be who she is. She belongs to no man, lives her life the way she has always wanted and has always helped and supported where she could. I cannot imagine a world without her and our last cuddle together has to be one of the hardest things I have had to face in recent years.

 

However, one positive side to it all was that while I was over there, I didn't put on much weight (1kg) and I have since lost that and more over the last week.  I am currently 300g off my first mini goal of 5kg, I am really looking forward to reaching that as I feel as though it will cement it in my brain that I can lose this weight again. I have also been looking at myself in the mirror over the last few days and thinking to my self that I feel skinnier!  Maybe I am just not as bloated or something, but hopefully it is something clicking in my brain and it is catching up with the weight I have lost.

 

The slow and steady mentality has kicked in again, and for me this is how I lose weight... this is what works for me.  No pressure, just life and trying to get the right balance. Always aiming for a 500g loss works for me, and trying to keep my food as healthy and nutritious as possible seems to be the key.

 

For example, today for lunch I had Curried Pumpkin Soup (Weight Watchers Recipe) and grain toast. So delicious!  It was a favourite of mine when I first did WW over 2 years ago now, and I still love it.  Now that the weather seems to be turning colder, I need to find some more delicious soup recipes, so if anyone has any that they would like to share, please do!

 

While I didn't take an official start photo, I am thinking of taking some for each 5kg I lose, so hopefully next week I can put up a progress pic.

 

Also, a little update on the garden front, I have potatoes in at the moment and I also bought a mandarin tree! I am a total newbie to fruit trees, so if anyone has any tips, please share those too!  I have ordered the compost bins I spoke about in my last post and I am just waiting for them to be delivered! Hope it's soon! I can't wait!!

 

I think that is all for me for now, hope everyone is going well, catch you next time!

I think I'm back?

You may have noticed that I have added a couple of posts over the last few days... I have been thinking about coming back and posting again... but thought I would wait for some kind of milestone... looks like I can't wait that long! lol

 

So, how about an update?

 

I have been keeping things really quiet lately as I really was sick of posting stuff up only to "fail" or at least fall behind. After 3 months or so, I finally feel as though my head is in the right space.  Things seem to be falling into place, at least weight loss and uni wise.

 

Over the last few months I have had a chance to really think things through, with no pressure, no goals and no obligations. It took a fair bit of soul searching, but I have finally come to peace with my new way of life and how I can fit things in/work things out.

 

In early January after a little holiday I signed up to Weight Watchers again, and this time, it's working!  My goals have been simple with my weightloss:

• no comparing myself to others
• taking it slowly
• not getting worked up on "the right way", just doing what works for me at the time
• aiming to lose 500g a week, but not beating myself up if I don't make it (hasn't happened yet lol)

Before uni I was exercising everyday, now that uni has gone back I'm not doing any.  While this isn't ideal, my experiences from last year proved that it's just not going to happen... and that's ok, so my focus will be on my diet.

I am breaking my weightloss down into 5kg mini goals. To me this is much more achievable, as you all know I have struggled to lose 5kg in one hit in a long time.

Rather than aiming for my healthy BMI range weight of 75kg, I have decided to aim for 85kg, as that was a weight I was able to maintain for a long time.  I am even thinking of just maintaining at that weight for 6 months or so, to let my body, brain and mindset catch up.

Anyway, onto the stats that I know that you all want to hear.  Since the 9th of January, I have lost 3.6kg, which is more than the 500g a week!  Pretty happy with that! So far I have even lost 11cm in a month.  I am due for more measurements as of this week.

So, sticking with my no pressure rule, I will stick with updating when I can, with no set routine. 

Hope to see you all soon!

Slapped in the Face by the Wii Fit Balance Board

Since my last post I have finished uni and all my exams, but I am still a little torn about whether or not I want to continue blogging.

 

However, over the last couple of days things have happened that I have wanted to write a post about, so I have decided to come back, write when I want to write and not push it... so lets see how that goes! I am still concerned about having this all public, and falling off the wagon again for all to see, but maybe it could be my driving force? Who knows...

 

Anyway, now I figure I should tell you all what I have been thinking/doing.  I think I mentioned before that my goal was to get back on track once uni was over, so that I would have a bit more free time to dedicate to building up some routines.  Initially I had said that I would start on the 1st December, it seemed like a good place to start and it would give me a week to ease into it all...

 

However... I started yesterday! lol!!

 

I am feeling much more calm about everything, and able to focus on it all, so I figured, why wait if I am feeling like this... better just get on with it!

 

Not long after my last post I decided to jump back on the Wii, the Wii Fit Balance Board told me that it had been 665 days since my last weigh in... and in that time I had put on 22.8kg... Initially I was mortified... but leave it to a computer to tell you what you need to hear and give you that slap in the face!  Funnily enough, it was actually a really good motivator!

 

I used to use the Wii as my main source of exercise when I was single with a mortgage and a limited budget... and it worked really well!!  In fact, that day a few weeks ago when I first jumped back on, I remembered just how much I used to love it!

 

Both yesterday and today I have done at least a half hour workout, using both the Wii and the Xbox, although I have to say that I am leaning more towards the Wii... I think I just feel a little more comfortable with it, and at the moment I am really loving the step programs.  Yesterday I burned 397 calories, and today another 382... and it barely felt like a chore! (BONUS! haha)

Another really big motivator is feeling how much my body is struggling with not only exercises, but also in basic stretches and flexibility.  Not only does it feel a bit 'tighter' but there is a lot more fat in the way. At least I can see/feel the comparison.

 

Food wise, I spent Sunday afternoon organising my Menu Planner app on the iPad again, worked out what I wanted to have for dinners and lunches this week and then used it to help me sort out my shopping list (it automatically builds it for you based on your recipes/meal plan, and then I just delete what I already have).  Yesterday I was right on target for calories, and it looks like today will be the same... at this stage at least! haha!  In my shopping, I did also buy a fun pack of Freddo Frogs and I have popped them into the freezer so that they take longer to eat, and its more of a conscious decision to eat one.

I have also gone back to using Calorie King, it's actually kind of nice to come back to my old faithful... all of my recipes where there from before as well as the lists of my favourite foods. Plus, I know it, I know how it works and can just quickly sort it all out on the computer or iPad.  I love that its all correct and not entered in by the public, I have had a few burns from My Fitness Pal where the data entered was incorrect.

 

Before my exams were on, we basically lived on take away, so I need to tell you all that my weight has gone up... again!!! As of yesterday morning I am 107.9kg... crazy stuff!! However, at least I am feeling more relaxed and a lot more in control, which I am loving. Here's to the weight going down!!

 

At this point in time I have decided to pull down the Goals and Progress sections, as it wasn't working for me in the past... although that may have just been my mindset, but also because it's going to need an overhaul and a fresh start.

Weigh In!!

Look! It's Wednesday and I am actually here, writing a post about my weigh in this morning!!!

(Although I should be writing up study cards for anatomy... you know, attempting to be organised and all that...)

So, weigh in...

I haven't really tracked anything this week, and I still haven't done any exercise, but I'm just taking each day as it comes and trying to do the best I can... although I seem to be having massive sugar cravings atm... no idea why though... I have wondered if maybe it was something to do with the whole 'missing out' concept...

I lost 400g this week, which I am happy with.  I have aimed for 500g a week, and considering there was no calorie counting and no exercise, this is a good place to be in!!

I think though, I will get up early tomorrow morning and get a walk in before uni... I need to get this routine going again :)  I also might go for another bushwalk this weekend... I loved getting out there... will be good to do it again!

Also, I have updated the Progress page with measurements, and I have cheated a little and put up the photo of me at the wedding a couple of weeks ago.  I know it's not this weeks one, but at least there is a pic there!

Update

Ok, so now that I have gotten that little tangent out of the way, you will have noticed that I haven't updated for a little while... this is because I have had mid semester exams on all week, so it has been heads down, bum up for a little while.

I am happy to come in and tell you all that at weigh in on Wednesday I lost 1kg!! I was pretty happy with that!!  It was good to see that tracking what I was eating and exercising each day (mostly walking) helped.

This week has been a bit of a different story, not that I have done anything outrageous or anything, but there have been a couple of days where I haven't tracked and I haven't done any exercise at all...  I am ok with this as my mind has been on uni and I am taking this as a long-term journey... and these things happen... like the Tupperware party I had yesterday where we made scones... haha!!

The Power of Tracking

I'm still here!!!  Exams are coming up so I have been focusing on those and haven't been blogging.

However, over the last week I have been tracking what I have been eating and any exercise I have done (which admittedly, isn't much) using My Fitness Pal. It's great to be just getting on with it and knowing that I am watching what I am eating without missing out and without stressing about it all.

The main reason I went back to My Fitness Pal is because they have apps for both my phone and the iPad, which means I can track from anywhere.  A lot of other websites don't have good apps, or good apps don't have websites.

I didn't post in here, but last week I weighed in at 105.5kg (not so great!!), but as of this morning I have lost 1.3kg, so it's a great start!!

I have also been thinking about restarting the Progress page, the biggest thing that held me up with that was not getting the photos taken, so I have asked a friend of mine to take a photo of me when we catch up each week, and I know she will keep me accountable.

I've been meaning to write this post all week!

I keep coming up with topics to blog about, but actually getting in here and doing it is another story!!

The last week has been a little hectic.  I have been off to the doctors to get some stronger antibiotics for an infection that has come back and uni has also gone back, so I have been trying to get ready for that... and attempting to get back intot he swing of things and set up some good study habits... which hasn't gone as well as I would have hoped.

Over the last week I have also been tracking propoints in a half-arsed kinda manner, so yesterday I started doing it properly.  Over the last week though, I have been noticing more of what I actually have been eating... and some of it really suprised me!  Not only what I was eating, but how much!  Portion control people!! lol I have already upped my fruit and veggie intake, which is one of the reasons why I love Weight Watchers, because it really does help me work those in.

Up until last night I had been tracking at home, using all of the books and tools here, but last night I decided to sign up for the 2 week free online trial, to see what will work best for me.  I have to admit though, that while the tracker does look pretty and it can be easier to search for food items, it's really not much different to just tracking at home, so depending on how I feel about it in 2 weeks time, I might just go back to tracking at home.

I have been trying to figure out the best format to do it in, At Home, Online or Unlimited (meetings), my way of thinking at the moment is that it's all pretty much the same... either way it is up to you to eat the filling and healthy foods, exercise and to track it all.  For what I can do at home for free, it does seem a little silly to pay $30 a month to use an online tool (especially when I have access to the forums anyway), or $65 a month to use both the online tracker and to attend 4 meetings. Maybe it would be different if my motivation was gone? What do you guys think??

One funny (or not-so-funny) thing I found out last night is that since my last WW weigh in in July last year I have put on 18.2kg... that's about 1.5kg a month!  I keep having what my friend said to me roll around my head "But... You were so strict!" and right now that is a really big motivator...

I weighed in this morning at 103.8kg, so not the greatest, but considering my half-arsed attempt this week, I'm happy with that 300g lol. The scales are still going down!!

I also went back to the gym yesterday, I did mean to go on Monday, but I had to cancel that due to some funky side effects from the antibiotics, but I was feeling ok yesterday so I just did some light exercising (treadmill, rowing, bike).  When I got home though, I had so much energy!  After the gym I ended up; doing the groceries, cleaning the kitchen, cook lunch, make a loaf of bread, bring washing in and do some gardening!  However... after all that I was pretty exhausted lol!!  But WOW!! It felt so awesome to have all of that extra energy!!!  Go exercising!! lol

I had to share this picture with you all... it's something I need to remind myself of constantly!

Feeling a little better...

Well, I think all of those annoying TTOM hormones are now under control again and I don't need to be so damn sooky!

After my outpouring the other night I just felt so much better having getting it all off my chest. Over the last couple of days I have been thinking about what needs to be done, and what can be done to help me more. So, I have pulled out my Weight Watchers books and I have started tracking my eating using this tool.

What I do love about this program is that it's really just like calorie counting and what I have done in the past, but it really puts a focus on "Filling and Healthy Foods" (fruit, veggies, dairy, etc) which are basically foods that aren't processed.  It seems like a small thing, but for me it really does help with my mindset as I have already found it easier to focus on these kinds of foods and look at how to incorporate them in my diet.

It has been different this time around to do it all 'manually', when I have done WW in the past I have been a member and used the online tools (basically a tracking diary online which is really useful - especially the search function! lol), but I have my tracking book that I didn't use last time, so I have started writing in that.  If I had some extra money, I think I would sign up for the Unlimited option again, mostly for the accountability of weighing in there and having that constant reminder once a week (like a bit of a goal I suppose), plus the leader was so lovely and supportive.

In my last post, I asked about forums, well, it turns out I still have access to the forum on WW, so that is pretty cool.  I have already put a post up as an introduction and to ask for support - which I have already recieved in bucketloads! The thing that I do need to do (or try to do) is to actually speak out more when I am upset or worried or something on the forums or even on this blog.  I think that when I am feeling down I do tend to just shut myself off from the world and just bottle it all up, and not wanting to worry anyone. I need to be a bit more out there.

When I first started WW I joined up with a friend (and then we both did 12WBT together too lol), so last night I sent her a message to let her know that I had pulled out my old books again and was going to start again.  Depending on how things go, we might end up doing it together again. In the meantime, she has suggested that maybe we have our own 'meetings' basically where we can catch up and give each other support and ideas.

A few weeks ago I had the idea of counting calories again, in truth... this failed... hopefully counting 'propoints' will be more successful... I'm not sure why, but I just feel a little more confident about the propoints as opposed to calories. Nuts, right?!

Now, I have another confession to make... I have been considering the idea of getting rid of my gym membership.  I love going, but it's just not happening at the moment, and that's $52 a month that could be used towards something else.  Right now, I am not convinced, or should I say, I feel guilty for cancelling it.  I think what I might do though is give it another month and see how much I use the membership.  Uni goes back next week, and I will have pretty much half days everyday.  Hopefully I can get my butt into gear and pack my gym bag everynight and just go to the gym on the way home.  My other option for if I stopped my membership was to exercise at home using the Your Shape: Fitness Evolved 2012 on the Xbox, which I do love! And going for walks (something I admit that I am not good at doing!). One day I would love to get back into bellydancing, but I think that might be a little further off.

Now, I am actually 2 weeks late with my stats, but rather than waiting another 2 weeks, I figure I will just do them now.  I will need to get a photo taken (hopefully I remember tonight!) and I will update the "Progress Page".  This morning I weighed in at 104.1kg, so a little up from last week, but considering its TTOM and I haven't been eating the best, I'm good with that.

Feeling Overwhelmed - and Weigh In

Starting to stress out a bit.... I just have so much on my plate at the moment.  I feel as though I am just running out of time.  I have so much on my mind with the break in, but also with uni and I also have the excitement of a new baby in the family.

With an exam next week, a rough past couple of weeks and 5 days away in Bendigo, I'm not quite sure where I am... and truth be told... I am struggling with weightloss motivation.

I was on a great roll with my gym workouts, but they seem to have disapeared... I need my mojo back!!

So, I have decided that Monday is the day (working on Friday and Sunday, and Saturday has already been booked out).

But, I did still weigh in this week, and sadly, I have put on weight... I was expecting this however, so it's not a total shock.  I ate far too much crap and, well, just far too much in general when I was away.  There was comfort eating after the break in, I admit it, but that's life, it happens.

I also realised that this is Week 4 since I started, so I need to do my measurements.  I have only just realised this, so I will need to do them tomorrow morning... and I need a photo for the progress page.

But, after 4 weeks, I have put on 100g more than when I started! haha!! Not good... my weight this week is 104.7kg.

Weigh In!

Today is weigh in day, and I am here to tell you all that I gained weight!

I have gone up 1.3kg, but I have a few reasons why I think it happened:

• It's TTOM
• I have eaten out a lot this week
• I have eaten a few things which have a lot of salt
• I have gone over my calories a few days

The last few days I have been a bit emotional about everything, and I think that is has impacted on my eating habits... and let's be fair... I think the Costco pastas haven't helped! haha!!

I am not upset by it all, it was expected and I am still going to be trying and "keep on keeping on" as my Nana says. Plus, I did say I was going to take it slow.

I am also wanting to start walking more on the days I am not at the gym, and I have even mapped out a 5km path!  It's all along a main road so fairly safe to do on my own (for the record, I don't live in a ghetto or anything, I'm just always super safe about stuff like this).

Speaking of the gym... I didn't go yesterday.  I was really struggling to get up and walk from my muscles being so sore from the PT session the day before.  So, I had planned on going for the above walk... and then it started raining... so I got ready to go to the gym before everyone got home and ended up helping my sister over the phone for an hour lol... sadly... it just didn't happen!!

But!  I will be packing my gym bag today so that I can go after work.  I will probably just walk, but I plan on doing the circuit the PT gave me tomorrow.

First Week: Off with a BANG!

Well, I had my first weigh in this morning since getting back on the wagon.  I have to admit that I have really been looking forward to weighing in this week - which is a good sign I think!!

My eating hasn't been all that great, but I haven't gone overboard like I had in the past few months, and I have been trying to cook more.  So, this morning I jumped on the scales and I was down 2kg!!! Can't believe it!!

I know that a first week is usually a bit more than what you can expect on other weeks, but 2kg is a lot!!  I'm feeling a bit less bloated, so I think that it's mostly fluid.

Also, yesterday I went and did my workout as promised, I even did it before I drove out to uni.  I think that this is the best time for me to do it, I really like working out in the mornings, because then it is done and dusted and out of the way.  I forgot to turn my HRM on for the first 5 minutes *face palm* so my results aren't completely accurate, but I still burned 326 calories.  Also, I realised the other day that I had actually not updated my stats in my HRM, so my previous results were probably a little out of whack as well.

Tomorrow I have my assessment at the gym. From memory they weigh and measure me and talk to me about what I want to achieve.  I have been thinking about this and I think this is what I am going to tell him:

• I want to build up the strength in my knee again
• I want to complete the C25K
• As much as I love doing weights, I know that I need to do cardio to burn more fat
• I still want to be able to do a sit up!!!

That's all I have so far.  I do have a feeling I will have a bit of a selling spiel on getting PT sessions... I know I have always avoided them in the past... mostly cos I hate exercising! But I have also found that of the ones that I have had, I have never really clicked with the person.... and I think that I need that... Anyone out there swear by PT sessions??

Soul Searching

Well, over the last 24 hours I have done a bit of soul searching and poured it all into this blog!  I have added a few tabs to the top of my blog with some new sections! There is now an About Me page, a Goals page and a Progress page.

It all started yesterday morning with a weigh in.  You see, the gym session the other day really gave me a kick up the butt, and I thought about where I was heading and what I want, so, I thought I would get it all out there and write it all down.  I think I have been a little braver than I have in the past... there are a lot more photos involved!!  I have decided that on the Progress page, that ever 4 weeks I will not only update the stats, but I will also add a photo of me... and hopefully there will be changes!

So, I have set myself a goal of losing 8kg by 29 September 2012.  This works out to be 0.62kg per week (it's 13 weeks away).  There is a wedding on that we will be going to, and I would really like to be able to wear the dress I mentioned in this post. There is no particular reason for losing 8kg, I just wanted a goal that is achieveable and something that I can work towards. 

So, here are my stats.  This is my starting point!

Week 1

Wednesday 27 June 2012

		Change	Total Loss
Weight:	104.6kg	-	-
Arm:	32cm	-	-
Bust:	117.5cm	-	-
Waist:	127.5cm	-	-
Hips:	129cm	-	-
Thigh:	74cm	-	-

I also want to go to the gym 3 times a week, on a Monday, Tuesday and Thursday.  These are my days off from uni, and it means that I won't be straining my knee too much.

I also need to start calorie counting again, so I will be using Calorie King.  I am so out of practice for doing this, it seems to be taking a while to get back into that routine again.

One thing I do need to remember is that I don't have the same routines and lifestyle as before, so I will be making mistakes and probably eating things I shouldn't without thinking (comes down to practice again lol) - this is ok!!  Just keep going and keep trying!!

Weigh In Wednesday

It's been over a week since my last post, but that hasn't been in avoidance, more like a preoccupation...  You see, the exam period has started (first exam was this morning) and I have been in study mode, which means locking myself in the study and having my head stuck in textbooks and online resources.

I have studied so much lately that I feel as though I haven't seen B in weeks, other than at meal times or for a quick coffee break... However, my last exam is on Monday (with my second one tomorrow... chemistry... yay...)

Now, usually at this time of high stress I want comfort foods... namely chocolate, however, I have to say I have been pretty bloody good!  We are still doing Lite n' Easy and it has been a blessing not having to worry about food.  All we need to do is heat it up.  Of course there have been a few things that we don't like, but we have at least tried them and now will choose the alternative option.

We are about to head into our 3 week of doing LnE, and as I didn't post last week, I realise that you all have no idea about my weigh ins! haha!! So, here is a quick little update.

As our LnE week starts on a Friday night (dinner being the first meal), Wednesday kind of comes into the middle of that, but last week I lost 500g. Which I think is awesome for only a few days.  This morning I weighed in and I have lost another 1kg, meaning so far I have lost 1.5kg.

It is such a relief to see my weight going down, but in truth, I think the part I am enjoying the most is the convenience.  It is also great knowing I am eating nutritious and balanced foods, and not feeling like I am missing out.

I really can't wait until exams are finished.  I am just feeling so exhausted at the moment, and in truth, I think that sheer stubborness is holding a cold at bay, so I have a feeling that I will be sick next week, but I will be trying to get some Vitimin C into me this week to help out!

Weigh In Wednesday

Well, for once I am actually posting my weigh in on Weigh In Wednesday! haha! It's about time I got myself sorted :)

Now, my weigh in went as expected - it went up.  Now, I'm not upset by this because overall I have been trying to make healthy choices when I was out and about (like having something filling for breakfast (scrambled eggs and ham on toast) rather than banana bread or french toast with bacon and mayple syrup), but we have been trying to eat what we have in the freezer to make room for our Lite n Easy order that's coming on Friday. So, anyway, my weight is 101.5kg - which I guess is my starting weight for LnE.

I have also been trying to drink a lot more water lately as well, and I have even installed an app on my phone that reminds me to have a glass of water. It probably seems silly, but it does help.  I have also started placing a 600mL water bottle on my desk while I study which has also been helping.  I just need to get back into the routine, as I used to easily drink 2-3L of water a day.

I have been thinking a lot about learning to run since my last post.  I think that it's something that I really want to do. I even had a quick look at my C25K app on my phone last night to look at how it progresses.  I am unsure if I can use a treadmill, but I do remember the physio mentioning the cross-trainer... I wonder if I can use that for the C25K... anyone know if it can be done

Well, I have a lab report due on Friday... I really should get stuck into it!

Making Things "Easy"

B and I are time poor... we have lots on in our lives and generally aren't that great at managing it all - at least time wise. So, we have decided to cut out "one more thing" and have decided to go on Lite n' Easy for a couple of weeks.

I have used it in the past and I quite liked the food and the convenience of it all. One of the things I loved the most about it was (when I was single and living on my own) was the variety!  I found it so hard to have a good variety in my diet and stick to a budget.

We have decided to do lunches and dinners only, as breakfasts are generally pretty easy anyway.  I will be doing 7 days worth and B will do 5 days worth as he has work lunches that he attends.  We always have a family dinner at his parents on sunday nights, which means that my extra dinner will become his 6th, so in planning, it seems that it will work.

One aspect of starting LnE that I am really looking forward to is lunches!  I have become quite slack in getting my lunch sorted, and I have been buying my lunches when I am at uni or work. I was concerned about he money aspect of it all, because, let's face it, LnE isn't exactly cheap... and does cost more than a weekly grocery shop.  But when I actually sat down and thought about it, I realised that we were buying groceries, buying lunches and then having take out on top... so I think that we might actually save a little money... who would have thought!!

I also love that it is calorie controlled.  Now, I am proud to say that I haven't had chocolate since I made the commitment a few days ago, however, I still haven't really been counting my calories.  Last night was a special night out for B and I, so we did both splurge a bit, but this morning I did make a healthy breakfast choice, so that's a good sign I think.

For the next week we will be eating what we have in the pantry and freezer to make room for our LnE delivery, so I really don't think the next week will be the healthiest week... but I am ok with that... I am just so relieved to have something easy coming up... especially with my final exams being 3 weeks away!

I have mentioned before that I am not the greatest with eating fruit... and I remember having the best eating habits with LnE in the past... so I am looking forward to having a more balanced diet and more energy... with less stress!! For myself, I will be on the 1500 calorie plan, although if I exercised 3 times a week for up to 20 minutes LnE calculated that I should be on 1800 calories... while that sounds awesome, I don't think it's really for me, so for now I will be sticking to the 1500 calories. Calorie king currently has me set to 1640 calories, so this will be fine.

Also, I know I haven't popped in here with my weekly weigh in, but I lost 100 grams.  I am ok with this as my weight jumped up by 2kg during the week, so being under is a plus.

I am finally starting to feel like myself again... and I am loving it!  i am feeling more in control of my eating and my mindset, I'm not sure if it shows to others, but I love having my confidence back!!

I went down town and bought a couple of tops for winter, so it's just nice having clothes that fit and make me feel pretty - even if they are larger clothes... it really does a lot for the mindset!

Cracked it... and now it's really time to take action...

By cracked it, I don't mean that I have gone bonkers... I am actually refering to the fact that I now weigh over 100kg... yup... I weighed in yesterday at 100.5kg...

I have come to the realisation that Easter and I do not mix well together... especially in a (now) 3 person household where one is a chocoholic (that would be ME!), one non-chocoholic (B) and one who would be a chocoholic if we let her (Miss 3).  Basically, we got 3 peoples worth of chocolate and pretty much only me eating it... which is really not a good option...

So, last night I had a really good talk to myself (hmmm.... am I bonkers?!) and I have come to realise that I am honestly feeling more at peace with getting back onto the wagon and getting it going again.  I have also decided to come up with a list of healthy snacks (my downfall) and I will be continuing to use the Menu Planner app on my iPad as it has honestly made life easier for us.

This morning I measured myself for the first time in months, and I have to admit, I was more than a little astounded by the numbers that came up!

Week 1
Wednesday 18 April 2012

		Change	Total Loss
Weight:	100.5kg	n/a	n/a
Arm:	30.5cm	n/a	n/a
Bust:	116cm	n/a	n/a
Waist:	125cm	n/a	n/a
Hips:	126cm	n/a	n/a
Thigh:	73cm	n/a	n/a

I have come to the decision that it is time that I start putting myself out there 100%. Owning up to my stuff ups and celebrating the wins.  I am only human afterall!

So, I am very much a goal oriented person, and as B and I have been thinking about taking a holiday (like a cruise) for a while now (I mentioned it a few posts ago that it may be a bit of a reward) I have decided to aim towards that.  I have also come up with a few other goals/rewards to help me along.  Now, I have put away all of the remaining easter eggs, although I do know where they are, I am hoping to use them as more of a reward.  Now, I know that you shouldn't reward yourself with food, but I am hoping that having them there will help to teach me a bit of self control.

I have put together the following list of goals.  I have pinched this idea and format from Mandy over at Fearless, Fabulous, Female... and Forty!! (hope that's ok Mandy!) I may add to this list, as I go along, but at this stage, this is it:

	Heaviest Ever	100.5kg
	Goal Weight	74kg
WEIGHT	MINI GOAL DETAILS	STATUS
99.9	Back to the 90's
95.5	5kg and 5% lost
	Fit into my 'fat' pants comfortably
90.5	10kg and 10% lost
89.9	in the 80's
	Complete the C25K
89.6	Get to Overweight BMI of 29.9
	Size 14 clothes
85.5	15kg lost
	Run a 5km Fun Run
80.5	20 kg lost
79.9	Livin' in the 70's
	Size 12 clothes
75.5	25kg lost
74.6	Get to Healthy BMI of 24.9
** 74 **	GOAL
70.5	30kg lost
69.9	in the 60's

 

 

See - gym bag is packed and is in the car!

I am really missing exercising too... and I am so afraid of injuring my knee further, I have been avoiding it.  My physio has given me a few exercises to do (which I really should do! lol) and overally is really happy with my progress.  I think I find it a bit hard to go to the gym and sit on the bike or the cross trainer for only about 10 mins (as much as I can take at the moment.) - mostly I think it's frustrating, but I need to start somewhere I know. In fact, today I felt so motivated that I actually packed my gym bag and put it in the car!!  Now I just need to get my sorry arse to the gym! I have been meaning to pack it and have it ready in the car... have to admit I am a little proud I did it... baby steps!

You might remember a while ago I set myself the goal of running in 3 fun runs.  Well, 2 of them have gone, but the Mother's Day Classic is coming up and I have recieved my tag and number, and I really think that it will be a good thing to do.  Now, with my knee and my fitness levels at the moment, I won't be running, but I do want to do it - even though it will be the weekend before my exams start.

I am also wanting to get the winter veggie garden up and running, so over the next week I am planning on getting the patch ready and planted. Speaking of the garden, I cooked up some of the most delicious tomato relish the other day using this recipe and tomatoes from our garden.  We have started using a lot more of the veggies we have grown and it's so wonderful to know that we are eating fresh and that we have grown it ourselves!

Just Say No...

I keep telling myself, "Just say no to the chocolate!"

Unfortunately, I am not listening to myself.

In saying that, I have been able to recognise when I actually want the chocolate and when I am just bored or just want to eat it because it's there, so I haven't had that much really. (well, comparatively at least lol!)

I cannot believe how much chocolate we have in the house at the moment... I even told B that I might get him to hide it and ration it out to me... it was said in jest, but I think the idea does have merit!

I have been a little flat out this week, so I didn't get a chance to pop in here and let you all know that I have lost weight this week.  So I managed to get down to 98.3kg.  However, the amount of chocolate that has passed these lips will mean that I will be putting weight on again.

I am definitely starting to reach my limit with these 'allowances' and I don't think it will be long before I am back into the swing of things...

I think the first step is to hide the easter eggs.... haha!

Checking In

Hi All

I am just checking in with my weekly weigh in.  Now, I actually did weigh myself yesterday morning, and I have to say, that I really didn't want to come in here and tell you that I did put on weight.

The truth is though, I am mostly ok with the fact that I put on weight.  We were in Melbourne on the weekend, and I haven't been moving that much because of my knee - plus I know that my eating has been all out of whack. Stress and eating don't go well together for me... I have had an exam and a report due (and done) and another exam on Monday for chemistry which I really don't feel prepared for and I am quicte panicky about it actually...

So, I am owning that, plus I am also trying to accept that this is life, and this time my weightloss isn't all or nothing.  Bumps happen and I am ok with that... mostly! haha!!  I think the hardest part is the little voice in my head telling me what I can't do and that I have failed...

So here is to ignoring the voices in my head! haha!

Anyway, so I only put on a kilo, so that's not too bad.  I think the worst thing is that I have been on my own so often lately, that I have kinda given up on cooking... not good! I am still struggling with breakfast... I think I am going to have to try and find something I am looking forward to eating... I have always loved honey weats... maybe I should give them a go lol My breakfast schedule has gone out the window since I have quit working full time lol

In saying that though, last night I actually made an effort and I made san choy bow... mostly cos I had the stuff sitting there and B doesn't like it lol... perfect reason to make it... all for me!!!  I even used lettuce from my garden! I have to say, you haven't had lettuce until you have grown it yourself!!  I am not a salad fan, but this is tops!

So, at the moment with uni has been crazy... as I mentioned before I have already had an exam and a report due - which are now done and dusted, but I am really struggling to get through Chemistry right now... in fact I have to admit that I am procrastinating about studying because I just feel so overwhelmed - how ridiculous is that?!  I know I just need to get in and get it done, but everytime I try I start freaking out...

On the upside, I have been itching to do some exercise lately - I think that it's mostly because I can't due to my knee.  However, my knee is feeling really great today and I am due at the physio in 15 minutes, so I had better get going!!

Anyway, that's my update!