Today has been a bit of a kick in the teeth uni wise... and I am feeling so sad and disapointed in myself.
Today I had my chemistry exam and I failed... it might seem like it is too early to call, but I know that I did... I answered maybe 3 questions (of 40!) in total... 22 of them were maybe partly answered but probably getting my equations confused, and the other 5 were unanswered....
I have been trying to get my study in for a subject I barely understand and memorising what the lecturer told us to (which we didn't need!!! WTF!!!) and then when I got in to the theatre, I looked at the questions and hit panic mode... and just didn't perform well.
If I had a bit more time, I probably would have been able to work them out and get it right in my head, but 40 short answer questions in 50 minutes is just nuts!!
To top it all off, I just found out that I only just passed my biology exam... and this is an exam that I was so confident that I did really well in... It was actually something I thought I was going to be so proud of...
Struggling to study, to understand the work, and trying so hard to do well, I seem to be not getting anywhere, and I am really struggling to understand what I am doing at uni... people say P's get degrees - that may be the case, but that's not my style. I want to do well. I want to understand it. And most of all I want to enjoy it.
Am I really doing the right thing... maybe I am just not cut out to be a uni student... maybe I am not meant to be a dietician...
Maybe it's just not for me...
That would really sap your confidence :( I take it that study is new to you? It's really hard to get your head around it.
ReplyDeleteStudying at uni is completely new to me. Other than doing a couple of subjects by distance, being on campus at a new (and much better) uni is just so new and such a big change.
Delete*gives ya a big hug* I find that the difference between not being cut out for studying something and just having a rough time of it is that if you know in the long run that you have an understanding on what you are studying. Meaning if you can look at it and know that in the long term that you know how it works.
ReplyDeleteI think you know how it works, and I think that you also know most of the ins and outs of being a dietician, and that its just some of the theory that you are having trouble with.
Are these the only subjects that you are struggling with in your course?
Hope you feel a bit better soon *hugs again*
Clinton
PS. Hope all that makes sense, tis like a bit after 4:30am and I'm not quite awake yet lol.
it makes perfect sense, thanks Eddie :)
DeleteI think what I am struggling with is that I am putting even more pressure on myself as I know that I have another 3 units of chemistry that I need to do for my course, and if I can't get this, how am I supposed to do the other 3?!
At the moment I am trying to find ways of studying that work best for me... I just don't know where to start! lol!