Feel like wallowing and diving into a river of melted chocolate

hmmmm..... melted chocolate.... thats a really great visual....

Anyway, on to the reason for my post.  I am so sad and upset today.  I really dont want to type it all out again, so in lazy fashion, I am going to just pop a link in here to my other blog.

Since I let all of this out this morning, I have been struggling to hold back the tears (so not a good look at work I can tell you that!) and all I want to do is wallow.  The only time food really popped into my head was about 15 minutes ago when I was in McDonald's picking up a coffee for morning tea - however I was quite strong about it, and walked out with only my skim latte.  Then it got me thinking, what do I really feel like?  What do I really want to wallow in??  One thought I did have was that I just want to run and run and run... not that I physically can lol, but I think I just wanted to wear myself out and feel like I have some kind of control over something in my life.  The other thought I had was that what I really want to be doing is curled up at home, with my blanket and I just want to knit and zone everything out.  Knitting and crafts are my relaxation.  It is like meditation for me where I can just churn through the thoughts in my head with no emotion and just completely relaxed.  With the weather being as overcast as it is atm, it is perfect knitting weather where I can just shut everything out.  (In case you haven't noticed, I am a bit fan of denial lol)

After reading Tracey's post this morning, it made me think that I should revisit my goals as well as I think this is a great idea.  However, I am feeling too much like a failure today and too mopey to be able to give it a proper, positive go as I will only be looking at everything that I didn't achieve, so I might do a little knitting at lunch time, and if that cheers me up a little, have a go at looking at my goals and trying to set some more.